This I want to remember

After years of trying I realized that I could no more escape
myself than my cat could jump out of the closed window
It might be possible, but it would kill us both
So I decided to follow her example, and settle in

Where the red rock met the sky
We dove into the dark pools of our past
Splashed around in our futures
I presented you to you and you gave me to me

I prefer a strange bed over my own
My home bed wakes me with a sack of mustsandmustents
Curled into the crispness of visitor’s sheets
I’m given only yellow leaves and a gauzy white window

It was the same platform that launched me into
every morning yet when my nose gathered up the air
I was stepping out of the darkness into a foreign city
in love with everything I did not know

I ran into a song today I used to use when we were young
and careless with each other, for one long minute
I couldn’t remember that I wasn’t in your car
Chemicals pulling at my bloodstream

This season is death, she thought and wrapped
herself tighter in headaches and clouds
Yet the way the sky roared over like a jungle cat
made her reconsider her decision.

Back in Brooklyn and of course she’s raining
She doesn’t care if I’ve been thinking of leaving, She’ll stay
charming as a stone wall long after me, and like everyone
I’ve ever fallen over, I want her more

The night started like any other, but by the time we peeled
ourselves up and off the sun was out relaxing on a sky
like a swimming pool, leaving us blinking, confused
as the work bound whether we were beginning or ending.

One in the morning Kensington stepping
Away from where I left you cocktail breathing
But you’re the one walking me home, how I hate you
for lingering, and of course I mean love

Like the anger of sound suddenly arranging
Its choppy waves into notes, and then…music
You stumbled through my front door and curled into
Me like the some ancient amulet stolen long ago